had a binge night tonight and binge day today. this is what happens when there is hardly any food left in my house. No vegetables or fruit when I need them so I choose peanut butter or nutella (neither of those this time thankfully and never eating them off a spoon or off bread again) but more chocolate (that my sister is selling but not eating any from now on) and I made muffins today. If they aren’t gone tomorrow I will throw them away. Convince mumma to go shopping tomorrow and get lot’s of healthy food I like. Dieting shouldn’t be a chore. Sometimes I feel like I’m never going to have a good body but just wait and you will. Be patient. At the end of this month weigh yourself and take measurements and you will see this is all worth it. It’s going to be worth it when you get a boyfriend, feel confident in a bikini, buy pretty unique clothes, people want to be you, finally be happy with yourself. Just keep eating good and exercising and everything will work out, you’ll see. 

okay forgot to update yesterday. it is wednesday morning currently and ANZAC day, I got the best sleep. so yesterday was pretty basic, had cross country which really wasn’t that bad but then I didn’t go for a run after :( but run tonight and abs workout. Yesterday the only bad thing I ate was chocolate chips which sucks. Today I am going to get frozen yoghurt with friends and instead of not going  I am just watching what I eat today to make sure I don’t go over board. I also will get a small tub with plain yoghurt and then for toppings only berries or the healthy things like dried fruit. I’m really excited because I love frozen yoghurt, it’s actually one of my favourite things ever. Anyway so this morning I had lemon water and multi grain bread with peanut butter, banana and cinnamon and am currently eating an apple. I will be updating later too. 

okay so today is 23/04/12 and it has been pretty good. Had lemon in water first thing and a bottle of water then porridge with mashed banana for breakfast. In pe we went for a walk which was probably like 2km so nothing big. Morning tea was an apple then carrot sticks, mung beans and red cabbage for lunch and for afternoon tea I had multigrain toasted cheese sandwich (I forgot to take it for lunch so I just had it after school) and a little dip bowl full of yoghurt and some muesli. Dinner was corn chips with baked beans and some cheese but the bowl I had wasn’t big at all. It was a cheat dinner but it’s shopping night so it’s the only thing we had. My night off from running but in about 20minutes I will do yoga and arms workouts followed by a shower then watch desperate housewives and revenge. Tomorrow I have cross country and then run at night with abs workout. I have been resisting the temptation to eat more baked beans and cheese but I won’t. Oh I also had a glass of raspberry ice tea for desert. I want some cheese so badly and some baked beans ohhhh yum but I won’t because I’m being good. I have decided what I want to be, I want to be someone who is confident in themselves. I want to be happy and smiling and laughing and surround myself with good people. I want to be pretty and have a hot body but not let myself get caught up. I want to be my own person and not care what people think. I have decided to start getting my eyebrows done at this place and then I am going to mac to get eyebrow things and get her to teach me how to do it. But that is way in advance. Maybe at the end of this term. So far I am extremely happy with today which is the first day. Remember 30 days. 29 days left and then it’s a habit and then it’s easy.